If you haven’t seen this video by Armen Antranikian, then you owe it to yourself. If you’ve already watched it, then I recommend watching it again. It captures so much of what I write and what you enjoy: voyeurism, that tenseness that comes with watching your loved one flirt, and all the heavy emotions that swirl when things go too far. If I could kickstart more of these movies, I would. If I could pick someone to turn one of my books into a movie, this guy would be the one.
Word of warning, while this video isn’t hardcore, I’d recommend against watching it at work. Besides, it’s good enough that you should find some quiet time to immerse yourself in it.